|I hope this stays around awhile...
||[Nov. 16th, 2015|08:07 pm]
I am feeling nostalgic tonight and tried to look through some things but some are gone I had a Xanga account before this and Xanga has been gone for some time. So I am not sure I can get back my 13 year old self but this has my 15 year old self and 12 years is still a lot of time.
My life has changed drastically since my last post. I graduated with my Bachelors degree in May but still am a aide. I could teach K-6 if I could find something I like. I am not in a rush though because I am currently 31 weeks pregnant. I never thought I would get to that point I have had 2 losses in the last 2 years. My autoimmune disease is out of control but with pregnancy you can't do much about that. I will be having a little boy in January. Mat and I have decided on the name Nolan for several reasons. I am a nostalgic person and it has a lot of connections to the early years in our relationship. Mat is in a new job and enjoying it a lot more then his previous jobs. I am hoping to get into a more enjoyable full-time position in the next year or so. After years of writing I am seeing now that some things don't really change. I am still depressed, anxious, and in physical pain. Do those things ever change though? I am more optimistic than I ever have been and I feel that Mat has had a lot to do with that. It just seems disheartening to realize that my core problems/complaints in life haven't changed over the 12 years I have written in this.